Eternally " just the friend"

so clearly I'm not one of those types that gets on here everyday...I think it's okay though because I'm pretty sure I am the only one reading this.  Ironically, it helps.  Thinking something is totally different then reading it after the fact.  I have found through all of this blogging, that I am somewhat dramatic in the moment.  I don't know that it is necessarily a bad thing though.  I will say that in most cases I hold back more than I wish I did, so if in the passion of one moment I can be overly dramatic... then so be it!  I'll be even for all of the times I didn't say what I wanted to so badly.  Okay, so my mom keeps asking me about my love life....funny I think.  I have been single fOrEvEr...and I mean really.  I just laugh now when anyone asks me who I am dating...bc it never changes!  I am so unbelievably picky, and I hate that!  Honestly, I don't even think that I am so picky, but things just never work out!  I am all for personality over looks, but there has to be an inital attraction to get to that level!  And if that is shallow, then I am sorry!:)  Why is there so much pressure!  I am a chill girl, I need a chill guy.  Easier said then done!  So while all my friends are getting engaged and talking about marriage, I am already clearing space in my closet for the bridesmaid dresses.  Katherine Heigl...27 dresses....welcome to my life!  I kid that I'm going to have to track down all of my bridesmaids by the time I get married...haha or maybe I will just make things easier and elope in Hawaii!  

"Sometimes you have to stand alone to prove that you can still stand." -Anonymous

hOw I LoVe SuMmEr TiMe...

well, on a lighter note...it's Summer! I could not be more excited about not being in class! For someone who despises school as much as I do, I find it ironic that 1) I've managed to post-pone my graduating by a year...or two, and 2) that I have decided on a major which revolves around school! Although, let's be honest...we all know I am not going to be a kindergarten teacher because I love the teaching part...I just really like to play!:) "I get to be Malibu Barbie, you kids can play with the puzzles over there!" All in all, school is the farthest thing from my mind right now. It's so draining! I think degrees are overrated, but I dont know that my parents would agree. So now that summer is here, Im going to delight in the fact that I have three almost four months to completely blow my money on useless activities such as put put, and theme parks. Which reminds me that I will be dining with Shamu at Sea World about this time next week! Good Times...

Deep summer is when laziness finds respectability. ~Sam Keen