mY tRiP tO nYc In PhOtOgRaPhS...xo

It's tiny, but this was the view from our hotel room! AMAZING!

The Natural History Museum! You can't tell, but we are in Africa!

This is where I decided I should live when I move to New York...I really didn't want to come home! I was googling NYC apartments from my ipod the whole time I was there!

My beautiful sis, and an amazing waterfall!

LeAd Me To ThE cRoSs...

So now that school has started, so have my sorority meetings!  I am in a christian sorority...and God tests me every semester that we come back!  Each semester I am challenged with the task of making new connections with new girls!  All my friends go inactive over summer due to busy school schedule's and work...I know this is not the reason I am in this sorority.  I joined initially to strengthen my relationship with him, and yet I find myself stressing about all the wrong things.  I have grown amazingly because of this organization, spiritually and mentally.  My family is not overly religious, so I never really had that growing up.  Yes, we went to church, but we didn't really talk about anything other than the hour we spent in our weekly services.  And that is when we went...it was never a regular thing.  I have a huge issue listening to God.  So often I feel like he is pushing me in directions I am not equipped to go in.  "I hear you God, but what I think you want me to do is this instead...."  I cannot differentiate between what I feel like I should lift up to him, and what I think I know is best for me.  I can't let go.  I let what other people think dictate a lot of what I do!  I hate that about myself so much!  I don't know where it comes from.  I am incredibly independent and I have a severe weakness in that aspect of self-judgement.  I genuinely analyze how my actions may affect other people in my life.  I don't ask opinions of my friends anymore in most cases, because if I hear a negative suggestion about something I am really positive about....I cant get it out of my head.  I will be totally compassionate about something...as soon as I hear something even remotely negative..it consumes my interpretation of what I am thinking.  I shame myself into what I think I should be doing in my life.  It is so weak.  I over analyze and lie to myself.  I know God is relentless and he continually brings me back to these issues, but I still cant seem to let go.  I pray constantly that soon I will be ready to admit defeat and let go of whatever is causing me to hold on to what I know is not my path.  It's in incredibly scary thing...not knowing how things will end up...where they are going...

"Certain thoughts are prayers.  There are moments when, whatever be the attitude of the body, the soul is on its knees".~ Victor Hugo

Whose In A Rush For The Real World Anyway...

So New York was absolutely amazing! I wont bore you with every amazing thing I encountered while there, but let's just say I found my twin in a city! Love Love Loved it! I found myself thinking "Maybe my parents could ship my stuff here when they get home..."quite often! I totally get why there are so many homeless people there! I wouldn't want to work either. I could walk around that city for weeks! So classes are starting yet again. It's funny, now that I am behind...I'm like "well, here is yet another semester!" Yes! I'm trying out this new thing where I don't worry about what other people think...so if it takes me 10 years to graduate...then whatever~!! Granted, I would love to be done with school at this point...I'm not, and really, stressing about it constantly is not making the time pass any faster. I'm actually kind of excited for some structure back in my life. I couldn't get most of the classes I need to be taking right now, but I am taking some pretty interesting ones, so that should be fun! I'll tell you one thing, I am getting the most well rounded education ever~~ Watch out, you probably don't want to challenge me to any pop culture games, bc I will def. dominate! Interior Design, Mass Communications, History, Astronomy, Art Theory, Fashion Merchandising...you name it, I know it! I'm just hoping to broaden that hodge podge of knowledge this semester, coupled with the two classes I'm taking that actually have something to do with my degree plan.:) If you need any tips on how not to go about college, I have quite a few! # 1 on the list would be:

Meet with your advisors! They really do know what classes you should take! See I thought as a Fresman I could just sign up for what I thought I needed....96 college hours later...and countless classes I dont need...I'm thinking that scheduling that advising appointment really couldnt have been that difficult! Do I sound bitter?:) I'm really not though. Besides studying, I LOVE college! You can still get away with eating your parents food, and naps because you pulled an all-nighter "studying". Blah Blah Blah...enough about school!

"College is a place to keep warm between high school and an early marriage". ~George Gobel

50 things you probably didnt know about me....

So I have the whole office to myself today! yes. I was reading a friends myspace page, and she had one of those silly surveys on her page...you know the ones. So amidst my boredom here at work, I decided to create a list of random facts of my own. Here goes:

• I rarely get scared at home by myself...but at night just to be safe, sometimes I sleep with a frying pan under the bed! Knife's kind of freak me out, and well with a frying pan I'm less likely to miss.


• I once stood in line at Starbucks... behind Greg Brady. (Seriously, believe me, it was hard to contain my excitement)


• My all time favorite food is ABC soup


• When I cant sleep, I re-play episodes of Friends in my head.


• I had the same agent as the Olsen twins when I was five...I could have been Michelle Tanner!


• I have the same re-occurring dream once a year. It's so random too! I have no idea why I have it, or how it pertains to my life at all, but Dolly Parton is in it.


• I have a collection of antique aprons. I buy them on every trip I go on. I don't do a thing with them...well except wear them of course! I'm trying to come up with something cool...still thinking


• I often cheat death when I am driving.


• I wish I was born in Greece.


• I hide things I write under my mattress


• I dance in the shower...a lot! I've fallen down a few times!


• I love Miley Cyrus...well really, I love Disney! And High School Musical! Otherwise, I'm totally mature:)haha


• I love Rap! So much so, that sometimes I print out the words and learn them all, so I can be cool and sing every word!


• I have been out of the country 4 times.


• I hate when people put things in their cart and a few isles later decide they don't want it! Take the two seconds to put it back where it goes!


• I talk to my parents every day


• I have an extreme interest in Africa...and I've never been there


• I already know who my bridesmaids will be....for a wedding that is not even in my remote future


• I LOVE Bravo


• I wish I read a lot more....I buy books all the time!


• I love to people watch


• I thought it was cool to barely eat in junior high..."one cup of yogurt...I am so full!" I'm pretty sure everyone saw right through that!:)


• Sometimes I pull muscles in my sleep


• Pike's Place Market is my most favorite place in the world


• I have a craft chest full of crafting supplies


• I love for it to rain while I am sleeping


• I want a tiny tattoo, in all white....so small though that I know I will never do it


• I have a really hard time crying when I feel like I should be crying.....but I can cry about the silliest things no problem!


• I own a guitar that I don't know how to play...I have had it for three years now!


• I love Christmas! But really, who doesn't


• My favorite number is 3


• I would be really sad if I lost the ring I wear on my right hand...I have had it for 9 years


• I let my rice crispy's get soggy before I eat them


• I start playing Christmas music in November


• Sometimes I buy baby clothes...I don't have a baby! The little shoes are just so cute!


• I love babies!


• I have the "falling" dream about once a week


• I love wearing high heels


• I wish I liked sushi


• Sometimes eye contact kinda freaks me out....


• I love tube socks! Those really should come back into style!


• haha, in the winter I tuck my pajama pants into my tube socks so I don't get all tangled at night! You don't have to tell me I'm a dork...I am VERY aware of it


• I like to send subliminal messages with my myspace page songs


• I really want an old mustang! I would trade my car in a second for one!


• I wish I didn't care what people thought so much


• Hobby Lobby might be my favorite store


• I love Racquet Ball!


• I get sick if I read in the car


• I love listening to live music


• I drink tomato juice....but only when I'm flying.

Learn to... be what you are, and learn to resign with a good grace all that you are not. ~Henri Frederic Amiel