It Is A Week For Lists...

Because I love lists, and I have been so completely blogging like crazy...here is 100 things I hope to accomplish in the coming year! Enjoy!
1. Craft, Craft, and Craft some more.
2. Put on a swimsuit without being all judgemental.
3. Read the bible from beginning to end.
4. Actually read half of the books I own.
5. Carve my body into a state of fabulous.
6. Buy some really cute rain boots and wear them to school.
7. Spend one whole day in bed, with a radio, and nail polish!
8. Run a marathon.
9. Spend more time with my sisters and brother.
10. Take a weekend off and go to a bed and breakfast with my favorites!
11. Thank God each day for something beautiful! I am unbelievably blessed.
12. Take cooking classes.
13. Take a structured dance class.
14. Prepare a fabulous meal for someone I love.
15. Learn how to play my guitar.
16. Finish buying the box set of Friends
17. Pay off my Credit Cards.
18. Continue my obsession with Fused Glass, and start doing something with it!
19. Go back to Lost Maples, and show my friends my mad backpacking skills.
20. Aimlessly wander the streets of Seattle with a cup of Starbucks...from the original Starbucks @ Pike's Place Market.
21. Write my testimony.
22. Share it with someone.
23. Work on this whole single thing...
24. On that note, I need to learn to be okay with being happy.
25. Get a puppy I can go jogging with!
26. Spend more time just sitting with my grandmother.
27. Go skydiving!!
28. Drive to a random town...for the day.
29. Learn how to decorate cakes!
30. Start, Write, and finally FINISH a journal! I have like five going at this point.
31. Catch Lindsey Kane singing somewhere! It's been too long, and her songs are all amazing and inspiring.
32. Buy an old film camera, and delve deeper into my love of photography.
33. Tell someone how I am feeling about them with no thought as to what will happen when I am done.
34. Quit holding back! Life is too short!
35. Have a sleepover with all my friends, where pj's are the dress code, and silly board games are the agenda.
36. Start an address book, so I can quit texting my friends every time I need there addresses!
37. Buy a baseball hat for rainy bad hair days.
38. Play more sports!
39. Start a savings account, and actually put money in it.
40. Organize my closet...like completely!
41. Donate more money to charity.
42. Find more cute babies to babysit!
43. Spend a day on the lake.
44. Get my friends to realize I would have way more fun if they started blogs too.
45. Force myself to make awkward eye contact not so awkward.
46. Dance more!
47. Get a tan for once this summer!
48. Buy more high heels! You really can't have enough of these! And I def. don't!
49. Make my parent's go out on a date!
50. Horse Back Riding on the beach!
51. Heck, even just laying on a beach would be nice!
52. See an Opera or musical!
53. Clean my house amazingly well, and keep up with it for more than two days!
54. Realize that going to the doctor on a regular basis is a good idea! It's just so darn inconvenient! Ugh...this one annoys me already!
55. Be happy and healthy, caring and content
56. Put more trust in God.
57. Find a long term volunteer project.
58. Explore writing as a career option...after I graduate of course. Maybe free lance....hmmm
59. Stand up for myself more.
60. Get a massage.
61. Learn to love Pilate's and yoga:)
62. Sit in the front row @ church and worship with the "hand raisers" during the first set of songs.
63. Watch more movies...I buy them...and straight on the shelf they go!
64. Be more productive with my time...this procrastination thing is getting slightly ridiculous.
65. Re-Decorate my room...and not in one week. I always get in a hurry. This is why my room is three different colors right now, nothing matches, oh yeah, and I hate it.
66. Start being honest with myself about all the things I know I need to be honest about.
67. Try sushi
68. Go to a karaoke bar and sing it up a little.
69. Take more videos on trips! These are always so funny!
70. Download more classics, as they just make me happy. And seriously, tell me you can't find a song to relate to everything you are going through?!?! It's just not possible.
71. Delight in the little things.
72. Learn how to take a compliment.
73. Fall deeply in love, helplessly and unconditionally.
74. Write the novel I know I have inside of me.
75. Go White Water Rafting!
76. And Skydiving too!
77. Find someone to do these things with me!:)
78. Ski something other than the greens!:)
79. Learn how not to say yes, when I really mean no.
80. Go camping...
81. Build a life size snow man.
82. Get my wisdom teeth out! I mean really I don't want to do this at all, but I am sick of being lectured when I go to the dentist.
83. Write down all of my business ideas! Haha There are a lot...the 1st: A Cute Little Bistro called...Just Dessert!
84. Continue to be an instrument of God's Love.
85. Volunteer at a Soup Kitchen.
86. Go to the salon and do exactly what I want to my hair without questioning it a million times, and then just saying.."Do what you did last time."
87. Dance Party!
88. Decorate my Backyard super cute, and have a BBQ!
89. Buy a BBQ pit.
90. Go Rock Climbing
91. Audition for The Bachelor...haha this is purely so I can say I did, not necessarily how I would like to meet my husband...but what a fun time! I love that show! And I would be fulfilling my Monday Night Crew's dreams!:)
92. Join a communities group at Austin Stone
93. LOVE LOVE LOVE
94. Find peace in things I don't understand.
95. Learn how to do car things...change my oil...and a tire..by myself...I did this once, but Ash helped me...and we might have cracked her car bc we put the jack in the wrong spot....
96. Sister's Trip To Georgia!
97. Amtrak Train it somewhere....
98. Make A's in all of my classes
99. Continue to blog...
100. Eat at a restaurant by myself....no actually I take this one back. I don't need that kind of self-confidence. I would be so miserable. So eat with a ton of friends instead!

All My Single Ladies...

So before you start reading this, please push play below so sappy love music can play in the backround while you read about my sad sad life and laugh...bc we all know I do not take myself seriously at all...it just is not possible. So my Mom and well most of the women in my life are always wondering what is "new" in my love life...and because of this I have decided to change my ring tone to "Secret Lovers". This way every time it rings...I inadvertently avoid the question, and get a laugh all at the same time. Haha, I think this is very very funny. You know what's most funny out of all of this...that the question gets asked every time I see someone. Like, I think they are waiting for "Oh yeah, I actually had time to go to the Boyfriend Market this week, and well, they had great stuff!" I don't really know where you meet nice boys. I mean I've heard church is a good place, although it's not why I go, and I also don't know that wearing my "single" sticker on my forehead is completely appropriate. I have also heard weddings are a nice place, and because all of my friends are getting engaged...I'm thinkin this one may pan out for me. Please don't take this blog as a desperate cry, as I am very content in my singleness. I have been forever. I will say it would be nice to have someone to talk to from time to time, laugh at me most of the time, with me on occasion. Oh and someone to see scary movies with. I love scary movies, and while I do get incredibly, ridiculously scared...it is all well and good at the theater...It's the trying to fall asleep without seeing slasher faces every time I close my eyes. That is the tough part. If I could find a boy that wouldn't mind whipping out some insane karate moves should the occasion arise...yes, that would be great. And I mean we will just call you my boyfriend for traditions sake. Also, why is it that when you go out, cute boys just stare, and all the creepers come up and creep? This I do not get. I think it's funny to when they creep all night, and yet, even when politely put down...they still want to hang out and follow you to every other bar you go to. Hmmm. I feel like rejection once, is rejection enough. But who am I to judge. This is all coming from the single girl, who has hug a pillow and sleep with a frying pan after scary movies!:) So this is the new plan...and by new, I mean it's been the plan all along, I'm just hoping it starts to work soon: I am going to continue being mildly available and def. the coolest, most fun girl ever! I'm going to let all the cute, nice boys wake up and quit dating all the wrong girls...and as a last resort, I will wear my "single" sticker on my forehead, all while flashing my ring-less left hand, and singing Beyonce's "Single Ladies". I feel that in a desperate hour, this may just do the trick.:) If this blog entry confuses you in the slightest, please refer to number 31 in the following blog: And You Thought You Knew Me. This should clear things up for you.:)
Leaving You Laughing I Hope,
xoxo a

And You Thought You Knew Me...;)

For lack of a better blogging topic, and frankly a need for something not so serious...for you: A List Of Random Facts About Yours Truly:
1. I am obsessed with split ends. Not other peoples...those people are called hair dressers, and they actually get paid to be obsessed with split ends. I just like finding mine, and cutting them off!:) It's the little things in life.
2. I probably should have been kidnapped years ago. Walking alone late at night, going to the store by myself, jogging in the dark...these things do not scare me.
3. I genuinely believe if Britney Spears met me(well really, any celebrity for that matter) she would want to be my best friend. I think I could balance out her crazy nicely.
4. My giant audience of five blog followers...is probably as accomplished of a writer I am ever going to become.
5. Compliments make me happy. Even if they come from homeless men in wheelchairs...I don't like to question motives, it is not polite.
6. My mother once told me that eventually boys will want to date a nice girl, and that they will get sick of dating sluty girls...seven years later...still waiting.
7.Sometimes to pass the time at work I fill my online shopping cart with all that I wish I could afford to buy...I then sigh...and usually get back to work.
8. Also on that note...I often go to homesearchaustin.com as if I am actually looking to buy a home. Now what makes this fun you ask? Price Range: 3-5 million!!! So if any of you Austin millionaires are looking for a place to live...I can probably point you in the right direction. And there are virtual tours. Awesome.
9. If fitting the contents of a bedroom into a small two door car were an Olympic Sport...I'd hold the gold medal for sure.
10. While we're speaking of records, I could also probably hold one for the most diet coke cans found in a car.
11. If you live in the Buda/Kyle area...I will probably recognize your dog before I realize I know you too.
12. I love love love Speghetti O's. Like more than you know!
13. I live in organized chaos basically all the time...but I consider myself to be a clean person.
14. I think A1 Steak Sauce fixes everything! "Rice a little bland...no worries". It's okay, Ash tells me I'm disgusting daily for this one.
15. Cereal only tastes good between the hours of 1 and 4 am.
16. I am obsessed with I-tunes...my debit card...not such a fan.
17. On road trips I make up ridiculous games to pass the time. Sadly, the only player: me, and most revolve around the yellow dividing lines on the road. Intrigued? I am always looking for a solid "Player 2"
18. Secretly, I'm a total peace loving hippy. Except I like hygiene and I can live without the whole jail protesting thing.
19. I like weird fashion trends...however, most of the time they don't make it out of my house. I often walk to the front door with total confidence, open it, laugh bc I feel self-conscious, and go back to my room to change.
20. I take full advantage of the fact that I don't have to share my bed with anyone. I used to be such a courteous "one side of the bed sleeper" and then I asked myself, "Why?!!" I say move to the middle, and make like a starfish!
21. This is one of my favorite numbers.
22. I've said it many times before, but...Seattle is my favorite city in the world!
23. I will tell you all year long that I can't wait for it to get cold outside...after about five minutes...I'm totally over the weather.
24. I truly believe I can type faster on a laptop. Maybe it's just that the clicking noise is more fun on laptops...but if asked how many words I can type...I'm going with the lap top number!
25. What I did with my life before this blog...I don't know. I feel I may have been a really boring person.:)
26. FUN should be my middle name bc 1. "that's so fun!" is a phrase I am thinking I should copyright, and 2. Obviously I am FUN, or my friends fake like I am...which I am okay with:)
27. If anything ever happened and I had to pick new parents...I would pick Brit's! 1. They are as obsessed with t.v. as much as me, so really you can't go wrong there. 2. They don't make me knock before I come in...so technically I already have the same privileges as a real family member. 3. They have a pool table which always makes for fun. 4. They are just awesome! And finally, 5. they laugh at all of my stories, and well let's be honest, this is a good confidence booster.
28. If I could lay outside all day, with super fun sunglasses on, and listen to Damien Rice...I would be an amazingly happy girl! I mean more so than I already am...if that is even possible.
29. I really like juvenile hair things like headbands and hair clips. Oh so cute!
30. I'm a closet ballet/salsa/hip hop/back up dancer. Basically anything you would see on Dancing With The Stars...I have probably re-created in my kitchen.:) Why the kitchen you ask? Because that is where I have the most room, and someone as classically trained as I needs lots of room to execute such skilled tricks.:)
31. I am probably the most sarcastic person you will meet, aside from Donnie Joseph.
32. I love my friends more than you can know! I would do anything for anyone, but especially these amazing ppl. My life would seriously be nothing without them. I thank God everyday that Texas is where I call home, and can only imagine how different life would be if I grew up in Los Angeles.
33. However, had I grown up in Los Angeles...my chances of living like LC from the Hills may have panned out a little better.
34. I rocked spandex bike shorts and Keds for three years of my life...and I'm pretty sure I thought I had the best fashion sense ever. Awesome.
35. When I used to go for bike rides as a kid with my sis Ash, we would pretend they were cars and use our hands as blinkers while "switching lanes" in the middle of the street. All accompanied with an appropriate "blinker noise".
36. If I hear a name I love for babies...I write it down. At the rate I'm going, my kids are going to have to have five middle names, a nickname...haha
37. I still eat "Peanut Butter Spoons"...not just a snack for four year olds.
38. There is a questionable picture in the yearbook of me caring a baby blanket...I was in the seventh grade. Why my mom didn't think this was a good time to intervene?....I don't know!?! :)
39. I will probably call you "love" "beautiful" "pretty".... all before I use your actual name. terms of endearment!:)
40. Driving from school I saw a girl wearing this:
this is never okay in Texas...really anywhere for that matter.
41. Coffee shops may be my new favorite hang out: they play fun music all the time, they have cute chairs for you to sit in, and duh...the coffee is nice too. Oh and they have people you can watch! One of my favorite past times. Oh and...if you stay long enough...they bring you really good yogurt samples! That may just be bc Jordan and I looked cute...hard to say:) Jk!! I'm really not that narcissistic.
42. I once had an ebay account, but I decided that betting wars to buy something was just way too stressful! Why do people think this is fun?
43. I am a sucker for chivalry. If you open a door for me, I will probably be in love by the end of the night.
44. I get really excited if I can remember what I dreamt about the night before.
45. I think everyone should go to New York City once in their lifetime. And when you go...here is a small list of things you should do:
Take your picture with Hannah Montana at the wax museum and let everyone think you really met her.

Walk really fast like you know where you are going, and talk in a new york accent.
Take a speed boat tour of the harbor. But not the nice speed boat tour...the kind of trashy one where they spray you with water guns the whole time. Way fun!
Stare at cute business men in Grand Central Station...this is easy to do because they are everywhere!
46. While I own a ladder, I think it is much more fun to balance on my sister's back (cheerleader style), all while trying to reach my smoke detector that has been beeping for batteries for two weeks. Nice.
47. I feel it needs to be stated...I've never had a broken bone before. I fall down A LOT too!
48. I love to sing in my car with the radio really loud! And if you catch me...I'm okay with that.
49. I cannot do a load of laundry like a normal person for the life of me! Wash it...check. Dry it...check. Fold it...um..not thank you. This looks like a nice, clean spot on the floor. And in a week when I can't remember if you are clean or dirty...we will just try again.
50. I am one of the most random people you will ever meet, but I can guarantee it will always be a good time. If we aren't friends, we should be.
Thanks LoVe'S!!
xoxo a

taking some time...

To say that this has been a tough week would def. be an understatement. I am still trying to understand how God works, and today, I just don't get it. These past few weeks have been absolutely amazing! I've never felt so close to God, and this week I have been knocked down for sure. I've been crying all week, and for someone who genuinely loves being happy...it just sucks. I am trying so hard to have faith in what is happening in my life knowing that God has it all figured out, but wow...some space for clarity and a chance to recouperate would have been nice. I know things are going to be fine, and thank goodness I have the most amazing family ever...I seriously don't think I could deal without my Mom and Dad. So many things have come into question this week, and I really just don't know where to turn. I am overwhelmed and just plain exhausted. I continually turn to God, and I can't find comfort fast enough. At this point I am just trying to surround myself with friends and family in hopes that I'll get back to my happy self soon. I really hate feeling like I can't be glad in everything that is going on in my life, because typically I feel so so blessed. I'm just trying to remind myself that things could be so much worse if I didn't have the support system I do. I love my family with all of my heart, part of the reason I'm struggling so much right now. I am so so broken, and all I want to do is find peace in it all. I need to be happy, it is all I know how to do. I don't do sad well, and it's tearing me up like you can't even imagine. Sorry for the barrage of emotion...but I needed to release it somewhere.

Beautiful Orphans...God, and FUN! My weekend in a nutshell!

So I def. got to go to the most amazing thing ever this weekend! Well aside from the fact that I am slightly obsessed with Africa, I knew as soon as I heard their little voices, I was in love. I got to go see the African Children's Choir perform in San Marcos and omg I loved them! They are a group of Ugandan orphans that travel around the world sharing their stories! So so amazing! The cool thing is, that they aren't up for adoption. The whole point of the choir is to raise money so that these children can be reared in native villages and brought up around their African culture. Just a really cool concept that I am so glad I got to be a part of. Here are some terrible quality videos that really don't do justice, but I will share anyway...all you really need to hear is their beautiful voices, and that's it!


So my sorority had our full retreat this weekend...good times. We laughed a lot, and ate good food...always a good combination I think. Anyway, then I topped off the evening by going to Austin Stone with most of my favs! Jordan, Ash, Christina, Sunny, Boyfriend(not my own, Sunny is just funny and refers to hers quite literally),Good times! I just love love love this church! It is pretty much the most amazing thing ever! I love that I am excited about church again! They always say that you need to be spiritually fed, and that bible studies and prayer is just not enough. And now, I could not agree more! I really haven't gone to church in a long time, 1. because I just don't have a passion for my regular church anymore. It is extremely traditional, and everything and everyone I once loved about that church just isn't there anymore. 2. My schedule sucks! That is a terrible reason not to go to church, which is why I love Austin Stone! They give you every opportunity for that not to be a reason you don't go! I leave just feeling good, which I don't think is ever a bad thing! The sermons are amazingly informative, and I really am getting so so much out of every Sunday I attend! It's way cool. We went to Trudy's for dinner afterwards, which is always fun! Probably my favorite restaurant at the moment, and I really don't want to say how many times I have been in the past month...bc that would just be embarrassing for myself. School is back in full swing, and I feel like I might be getting to a place where I could become overwhelmed.:) I just have a lot to do in these classes, so staying on top of things is going to be key for me! I will say though, I have already done some extra credit, so yeah! Way to start right!?:) I think it will be a good semester anyhow, and I feel like I can make A's in all of my classes as long as I keep with it. A's make my parents happy, and I don't feel like a loser, so I think that is the plan I will go with.
So my friends and I were having an interesting conversation at dinner last night. We were talking about being mature for our age. My sister Ash seems to think it is weird to think that I am mature for my age. I def. didn't agree. She argued that it is one thing to think that you are, but for me to say so of myself was weird...I don't know, bc obviously I don't think it is. I feel like I'm pretty versatile in this sense because I can def. get along with a wide range of age groups. My fifteen year old sister and her friends: check, my friends all ranging in age from 18 to 25: check,my parent's friends: check! my grandma's friends: check!(And yes, we are really friends! I take her to her historical commissioners meetings once a month, and it has to be said that each month I already have a name tag waiting for me at the sign in table. Those old people love me! But what can I say, I think I was a pretty cool 60 year old woman in a past life). So I just guess I don't really see why it is weird that I think I am mature for my age...thoughts? I asked my mom this same question, and she said that I am still young but that I've experienced a lot...so that's probably why I feel that way. Her words exactly: "Well, look at it this way. Your mature in the sense that you've had the college experience, and you've always worked and been really responsible. But you never went through that whore stage, so that's good. Your mature that way too I guess". That whore stage? Who even knew that was a stage in life?! Haha, thanks mom! Glad I could make you proud by not being a whore. So just in case you were wondering...if you went through said stage, I guess you are not as mature as I:) Now here's another question. Can you be totally in love with High School Musical and Hannah Montana and still be mature? I argue yes! Now I understand as a 22 year old this is probably not completely acceptable to most, however, I like to think that this is just one more factor that makes me an incredibly qualified babysitter. I am around children a lot, so I think the fact that I like the same shows they do...only a plus! Like another great qualification in the job of life! "Hmmm we need a new babysitter...." "Look this one already likes the same movies! Hired"! It's really no different than you grown men playing video games all day...and I know you all think you are mature...and even with my love for Disney, I can guess that I am still a few years ahead of you:) Also, I've been really trying to figure this whole work thing out. I really think its time to cut back on the weekends! I mean we're going on year 7 of weekends, and at this point I'm over it! So yeah...I think that at this point, I actually have good reasons as to why being there on the weekends all the time, just isn't working for me. I absolutely love church, and so I don't want anything to get in the way of that, and I really want to actually go see my friends this semester! It doesn't help that they are all spread out College Station, Houston, Austin, Los Angeles, Seattle, Vegas...okay...not those last three, but still it would be nice to just have the option should I feel the need to randomly road trip it to see them!

And They Say Kids Say The Darndest Things...

First things first...if you haven't seen this movie..RENT it...actually Buy it, bc its that awesome. okay can we talk about how cute little kids are?! I mean geez. I was babysitting tonight...and seriously! Funniest kid ever! I love little kids, they always say the funniest things! Not to mention that they all think they know all there is to know about the world. And well really, who are we kidding...i learned most of the important lessons young too!:) The little boy I babysit is three years old! Three, and already he is very precise about being called by his full name, wearing his clothes right so he can be a "cool dude", and oh so much more. This all came to me tonight as he sang "Ho Ho the missing toe, tumbled down his sleigh..." with total confidence...as if there was any question to the accuracy of his lyrics. So much fun! He did proceed to tell me that he didn't like me at one point this evening while we were putting on pj's...to which I replied like a three year old..."that is not very nice, and I thought we were friends!" I like to lower myself to that of a three year old!:) I think had mom picked out some a little cooler...there would have been no problem!:) Don't kill the messenger right!? I'm sorry turtles aren't as cool as T-Rex, but you are three, and you can't even say Tyrannosaurus Rex!:) Will's parents have the lock on the outside of the door bc he gets up so much! He hates bedtime. This has forced him to crawl out of bed and yell under the door "Hey! Hey! Hey You!" at every slight noise I make from downstairs. It's really quite funny. "Do I get the remote...no, too loud...I think I'll just sit here in silence instead." So this past few weeks have been mildly boring, as most of my friends have gone back to school, and well I work ALL THE TIME! I've def. decided that I hate one of my jobs, and by decided, I mean I've known all along, I am just choosing now to fully accept it. I find it all kind of draining...but I have to stick it out a little longer. I think the earlier portion of this post is a testament as to why I should be working in a daycare. I mean think about it! You get to play with cute kids all day...without having to take them home! It's like the end of the day and.."You are too fussy...well here you go Mrs. Smith, have fun tonight! Please bring him back tomorrow when he is happy again" I mean really, win win situation! I really had plans to quit this job last week, and then three other employees beat me to the punch...and well let's be honest...I felt bad for my manager. So it is what it is. So last night I went to Chuy's with a few of my girlfriends, and we really had a blast. A few fun things that happened at dinner:
Our hostess let us know the table was ready....by singing over the intercom.
Jordan and I drank margaritas and giggled a lot...(I'm pretty sure we were actually being funny, but its really not relevant. We pretty much laugh all the time together.)
There was a super cute baby at the end of the table next to us...that just kept waving. Love It. I have def. become that weird girl that not only stares at your babies at dinner...but if you'll let me, I might ask to hold them too...but I swear I'm not crazy or anything!:) I just genuinely love babies! Aww so cute!
We caught up on all that is going on in each others lives, and it was just a good night with the girls. One I think I'm going to have to repeat every night this weekend until school starts on Tuesday! (Something I am not excited about..but what are you going to do?) I went Starbucks on Sunday night...pretty much with this same group, minus Christina, and add a Clayton...and we had so much fun too! Clayton wrote a song for me that is pretty much the most amazing song I have ever heard! He is going to record a video for me and then of course you will all be hearing about it! I feel like when a friend can write a song that even mentions how I sign my notes xoxo a....it is a good thing.
So I totally have a new outlet, and it is so so so much fun! And by fun I mean addicting! Like I really found myself sitting in my room last week counting change to see if I could go to the glass store!"hmmm $5.00, okay that will buy me...!" Cocaine...not so much. Colored glass...YES PLEASE! I'm a junkie for crafts, what can I say? I've been making fused glass plates and jewelry! So awesome! I love it! ! And can I just interject that of all the addictions I could have...besides Bachelor, I think this could be a good one.:) Also, funny that I just asked if I could add that...this is my blog...I can do whatever I want! Anyway....that pretty much gets you up to date! Enjoy! Also, shout out to Jordan, I love that you love to read this...that pretty much makes my day. Especially since reading is really just like a recap for you...we have basically spent the last month together...ALL THE TIME! But either way, it is still aWeSoMe! Thanks Love!
xoxo a

SoMeTiMeS eVeN i NeEd To PiNcH mYsElF...

So let me just start by saying that I typically lead a life of randomness, however this past week has been extremely random and fun to say the least! I love love love my friends, and they are pretty much the reason I love my life so much! I'm sure everyone probably feels the same way I do, but I really don't have the same kind of fun with anyone else. I also got a glimpse into the future this week. As you know, I'm going to be a bridesmaid in my best friends wedding in June. One of the other bridesmaids is going to be 7months pregnant at the time of the wedding...so needless to say,finding a dress that will accommodate everyone has been difficult. So we are at the Bridesmaid store, and we think this dress is cute...well and this is pretty much how the rest of the conversation went:
Bride: "So do y'all like this dress?
Maid of Honor and me: Yeah, it's totally cute! But really how is this going to work for someone that is pregnant?!
Bride: Let's ask the shop people how they can alter it...that might help.
Shop Lady(to me): Yeah, that dress can totally be altered, but do you want to try on the pregnant suit?
Me: Um, yes please!!!
Mind you, I am not the one that is going to be 7 months pregnant at the wedding...let's just make that a clear statement! haha
Sidenote: why it is totally a legit prop to have in a bridal store, we all still thought it was very funny! So I quickly went from simple bridesmaid, to that of an expectant mother! So funny! And while I've never been 7 months pregnant, I'm pretty sure this was an accurate account of what I can physically expect. Of course I had to play the part, so I even took a few photos with with my best "motherly" pose, cupping my unborn pillow child of course! We topped off the afternoon with Trudy's for drinks and stuffed avocado! Great Day! And, it wouldn't be fitting if we didn't end the night seeing Bride Wars, which we somehow dragged our guy friends too. Good movie, and I do recall them laughing quite loudly, so I know they enjoyed it, though they may not admit it as openly as I. We went back to Brit's afterwards and played Dork Ball for a few hours. For those of you not familiar, it is a ridiculous game we played in high school where you basically take turns running around the pool table all while keeping the cue ball, and one other ball moving in unison with the order that you are supposed to hit it. I know that really makes no sense, and really until you embark on the wonder that is this game....you really can't understand. And last but not least, my friend Clayton wrote the most amazing song I have ever heard! It was absolutely amazing, and so so funny! I wish I could share, and soon hopefully I will. I have already put in my request for an "Ode to Amber" as I think it should be properly named. I came home to find that my friend Mollie had left me a message that read as follows:
"so I just realized that the majority of people we know are either engaged/married/or have children or preggers. survey says we're a little behind schedule. :/" to which I thought long and hard in my reply:
"established. which is why I have decided that though we may be sad, lonely, single, and running out of time to pro-create....we can relish in the fact that we still have some things going for us.....our sense of humor, each other of course, and ice cream! Although we may be doomed in the love department, (and yes doomed is possibly a strong word choice...but equally appropriate as well...)we will always have roomate options....and means, and extra rooms for lots and lots of cats....Because if you are plagued by an eternity of singleness (RECAP: like we seem to be setting ourselves up for ), then it is only appropriate to fill the void with something as furry and cute as these. We can start the collection out small (so the humane society doesn't catch on of course)....then we just let them explode! We'll start the hording around year 2. And that my friend, is why we are just fine. No worries. Your welcome.

the only planner you need,
amber

So that was my weekend in a nutshell. Lots of fun!n I've got it all figured out...and there is still fun to be had! One more week still school starts...again! Oh the life of a college student!:)

Just When I Thought It Couldn't Get Worse...It Gets Better!

So the holidays are coming to a close, and I am really kind of upset about it all. I have had a lot of time off recently, which is always cause for some soul searching and self reflection for me. Now, I do this on a daily basis....analyze my life and where I am at...and well, things are looking up! For now anyway. I have been anxiously avoiding looking up my grades for the past month bc I have been so nervous! When I say I am a procrastinator...it is most def. an extreme understatement! I also love to focus on the positive, and by focus I mean totally avoiding any aspect of negativity at all costs! I really have not been able to fathom the idea of another disappointing semester, so I just completely shut it out of mind. I pretty much had to make a certain GPA this semester in order to register for next semester...blah blah blah! Well seeing as classes start in a week or so..I decided to be a big girl and just check them. I DID IT! I am officially back on track, and taking classes that actually pertain to my career choice. I cant even begin to explain the weight that has been lifted. I really don't think I could have handled being a loser for yet another semester! I have seriously been thinking about where I could move when my life falls apart, bc that is what it has felt like! For the past two years, I have just been stuck in this crazy place, and I really have felt like I was running out of options! And please don't take that comment wrong, bc I know school isn't for everyone...those of you not going, I envy you. I really do. I envy the ability to stand up and say, this is a better plan for me. I envy that you have such faith that you can pursue your dreams freely and openly! I wish I had the courage, but right now, I'm not there...so school is my only option! I have a million dreams I want to embark on, but I can't do it until I know I have satisfied my parent's dream for me...a college education. I have been trying to play catch up for three semesters now, and it's been really hard emotionally. Thank God my parents have been supportive, but I still feel like a disappointment to them. Financially, I am not equipped to pay for school myself, and so that has been weighing on my heart a lot. Graduation is no longer an idea, but a reality that is in the sort of near future..(about a year). Whew...I feel like I can breathe again! So this past few weeks has been amazing for the most part, despite one sucky situation...but one I can't do a lot about...so I'm putting it out of mind for now. All of my friends are home from school, and I love them...A LOT, so seeing everyone has been amazing! I am playing with the idea of finding a new job...as one of the current ones...not so great. I am actually kind of excited! It has needed to happen for a very long time now, and I am finally ready to be selfish. I don't really know what I am going to do in terms of employment right now....this is actually going to force me to budget~ YIKES! I know it is all in Gods hands, and so I'm really not trying to stress too hard. So now that you are mildly updated on the crazy life that I lead....I LOVE YOU ALL! Thank you for your comments, as you really have no idea how they help me through!:)
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